Thanks for your comments, your suggestions and your emails. Thanks for your virtual hugs and cups of tea. It is somewhat reassuring that most people can relate. It is less isolating. I have taken what has been suggested and given each due consideration. I can report I am now taking St John’s Wort, have started a gratitude journal, and am making some attempt to leave the house every now and then.
“You live like this, sheltered, in a delicate world,
and you believe you are living.
Then you read a book … or you take a trip…
and you discover that you are not living,
that you are hibernating.
The symptoms of hibernating are easily
detectable: first, restlessness.
The second symptom (when hibernating
becomes dangerous and might degenerate
into death): absence of pleasure.
That is all.
It appears like an innocuous illness.
Monotony, boredom, death.
Millions live like this (or die like this)
without knowing it.
They work in offices.
They drive a car.
They picnic with their families.
They raise children.
And then some shock treatment takes place,
a person, a book, a song, and it awakens
them and saves them from death.
Some never awaken.”
Anais Nin via And sometimes planes they smash up in the sky