As I was driving to uni today, my top felt weird. Like all bunchy around my arm pit (gross, arm pits). I just assumed I hadn’t pulled it on properly and it was all caught up, so with one hand, I tried to adjust it as I was driving but to no avail. Half an hour or so later, I couldn’t stand it any longer so balancing the steering wheel with my knees, I used both hands to straighten myself up … and pulled out a sock. There was a sock in my top. A sock. In my top. This particular top never needs ironing, just gets folded straight from the clean washing and put away, so I guess the sock was stuck inside. Now at least the other sock has its mate back.
My lecturer called me ditzy last week. I’d forgotten to do a section of an assignment and when I told her and said that I’d have it to her by the end of the day, she just looked at me. Then she said, “You’ve been a bit ditzy this semester, haven’t you?” I’ve been called a lot of things before but never ditzy. She is completely right though, this semester has been a clusterfuck of ditziness.
I’ve been missing classes and lectures (accidentally and intentionally), handing assignments in two days passed their due dates, not reading the texts, and feeling completely and totally overwhelmed. End of semester isn’t far away at all but it really can’t come soon enough. I need to rein in my mind, I don’t know where it is – still in Vietnam? Running around in a field of yellow daises, in total denial about how much work we’ve still got to do? – but it’s sure as hell not been on the job.
Though my existential crisis wasn’t resolved by the expected time (24 April at 2.04pm), I think it has, for the most part, passed without causing too much damage. I still don’t really know what my purpose is – does anyone? – but I came to the conclusion that as long as I keep questioning life every now and then, that means I’m open to change and growth and that can’t be a bad thing. I’m happy with that for now.
Other than feeling like uni is trying to eat me alive, life has been good. I’ve been feeling way more social than usual. I finally caught up with my high school best friend who I haven’t seen for over a year, despite living less than a ten minute drive away. We laughed so much that when I coughed at work the next day, my stomach hurt with the intensity of a thousand sit-ups. Always a good sign of a fun night.
What have you guys been up to? I’ve missed you.
Hahahah! A sock in your top. That is hilarious!!
ReplyDeleteThat sock story is amazing. And it's definitely not a bad thing to be open to change and growth. Once you stop, that's when I'd start to worry. :)
ReplyDeleteI am oddly relieved to hear that I am not the only one that is feeling ditzy lately. Honestly. I bought some of those ginkgo pills that are supposed to support brain function. No improvement. I am still a complete dipshit. I can't think of words, lately. Conversation with me is painful.
ReplyDeletebtw....what's up with the fam? you gave me just enough info in your last email and then left me hanging. Where is teleportation when you need it? We could just meet up for drinks.
Haha! Your sock story is hysterical, Annelise. Glad to hear from you. And good luck with uni work, you can do it! ;)
ReplyDeleteP.S. Definitely yes on those life questions, no matter how difficult they may be.
I woke up today with my eyelid swollen shut after having been big by a spider in the middle of the night. This has nothing to do with the sock in your shirt, but somehow felt just as random.
ReplyDeleteI, too, have been having an existential crisis. I recommend scrambled eggs in coconut oil and watching Felicity on repeat. She was the queen of the existential crisis and is, therefore, somewhat of a kindred spirit. At least to me. Oh, and coconut oil helps reduce demential so that can't hurt either. It tastes good too. Not at all coconuty.
BIT by a spider. BIT.
ReplyDeleteCan you imagine? It's 1am and I'm afraid to go to sleep.
I'm so glad you posted again! I was starting to miss the quirky and hilarious writings.
ReplyDeleteAlso... what a weird place for a sock to show up. I sometimes find them in my pant legs, but a shirt?
I think once you are all 'who am I, what am I doing with my life', things like at uni, which are very much a course of action, feel weird. You'll get there, and you'll soon have a break to sort out your head.
ReplyDeleteRegarding the sock. I had the same thing recently with jeans, except there were a pare of pants in the knee. And the jeans were on their second wear. :\
I've been clumsy and ditzy and then decided to take control back and it worked for three days and then the clumsy ditziness came back and now I think I'm normal. But it could be anything causing it and worrying about it wont help usually.
ReplyDeleteI hope you find whatever answer you need. You rock x
I've been clumsy and ditzy and then decided to take control back and it worked for three days and then the clumsy ditziness came back and now I think I'm normal. But it could be anything causing it and worrying about it wont help usually.
ReplyDeleteI hope you find whatever answer you need. You rock x
Haha, love the sock story. Good luck with your Uni. studies. :)
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