Everything is making me tear up these days, if not completely bawl my eyes out. Not in a sad way, just in the kind of way where it seems like you feel every emotion.
While trying to write an essay last week, I was in the middle of a procrastination binge and happened across a story of a Yale graduate, Marina Keegan. She wrote an essay about finishing college and about all the hopes and fears she had for the future. Just days after graduation, she was killed in a car accident. The line in the essay We’re so young. We’re so young. We’re twenty-two years old. We have so much time opened the floodgates and I was a mess for about half an hour or so. You can read her essay here if you want.
It was raining one day on the way to uni and the sight of a flock of sheep trying to shelter under the branches of a tree made me cry.
Song lyrics are making me cry all the damn time. I can’t even remember one in particular because it’s ALL OF THEM. I’ll be singing my heart out in the car and then all of a sudden, my throat will start tightening and I’ll keep singing even though I sound like I’m choking because listening to that is oddly satisfying.
So, given my current heightened emotional state, it was no surprise that I had to start blinking really quickly and using all my concentration to swallow when I opened a mysterious package that came in the post at the end of last week. I immediately recognised the handwriting as Sarah's (it’s really pretty handwriting) and thought ‘Oh, must be a book,’ because we did this book-swap thing a while back until Australia Post deemed it too expensive to keep up. The thought that we weren’t swapping books any longer didn’t even cross my mind. I sat down at my desk and ripped open the bag and out fell this:
Chocolate! To help me keep my sanity while getting this one remaining essay done! I sat down in my chair and had to do that thing where you squeeze your eyes shut and screw your nose up and purse your lips to stop the tears again.
People are awesome. Sarah, you are awesome. Thank you! I am going to DEVOUR it all.